menerapkan tidak untuk tetap bertahan

tidak berhenti hanya pada pernyataan

tidak cukup hanya cinta

tidak mengutuk saat air mata mengalir

tidak gelap otak, mata dan hati saat diri kecewa

tidak mengakhiri kala badai menerpa

tidak melepas tangan saat segala terjadi

tidak menyesal saat romansa rollercoaster ride mendominasi

tidak gampang untuk mengatakan tidak,

karena cinta bukan untuk di pilih pilah.

pelabuhan hati itu relatif. mencari lokasi berlabuh yang cocok itu absolut.

hai dirimu….

kamu masih ingat saya, saya tidak perlu bertanya untuk tahu soal itu.
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apa kabarnya kamu?

apakah kamu masih menelusuri segala penjuru angin untuk mencari?
mencari yang cocok, atau paling cocok?
tiada yang yakin.
baik saya. maupun kamu sang penelusur yang tidak berhenti melalang sana sini.

jika kamu bertanya pada dirimu sendiri, di suatu siang atau malam yang kelam, “kapan pencarian akan berakhir? kapan kata ‘berlabuh’ akan mencapit suatu yang bermakna?”

jujur, saya sendiri juga bertanya. bukan bertanya pada dirimu.
saya juga bertanya pada diri sendiri.

setiap orang boleh memiliki persepsi dan definisi yang mirip walau tidak sama persis.
dan setiap orang belum tentu mengalami atau mendapatkan ‘tempat berlabuh’ yang sama.

saya hanya bisa berharap…
baik saya, dan kamu, akan menemukan tempat itu.
tempat yang penuh makna. yang mampu mengubah kita berdua.

apakah saya dan kamu akan berlabuh di lokasi yang sama? menemukan oasis dan bersatu?
mari kita tidak berharap.
mari kita saling berharap untuk menemukan oasis masing-masing.

saling tertarik tidak harus selalu bersatu, bukan?

:)

colorful, bittersweet rainbow

Basking in the beauty of rainbow doesn’t mean you gotta view one with them eyes literally. Its all in the head.

List out [ME]rah [JI]ngga [KU]ning [HI]jau [BI]ru [NI]la [U]ngu. Fill in each of them hues. When they’re complete, compile them! You’ll be amused.

7 different colors. not all will be filled with happy inputs. uh huh.

but, to state EVERYTHING positively when the real world is bitter and sweet collaborating is nothing but delusional denial. :p

i do believe if we hold on to the optimistist side while doesn’t deny the seasonal yucky and sour ‘happenings’, everything will still be a PLUS in the end.

outta seven hues, 4 PLUS feat 3 MINUS still give us a PLUS result, right?

:)

Chasing dream[s] and realization

Identifying THE PASSION of one’s life is one.
Determine to REAL -ize it, is another.


Let’s term your passion ‘P’ and determination ‘D’.


Now, throw in “CURRENT”:
1) O - obligation (work, family, study, life in general).
2) F - financial support/ funding.
3) T - free time slot in between life’s routine


P + D - O - F - T = ??
Wait a minute…
Determination should consist of many factors, including O, F and T; no? :)


P + D - O - F - T
= P + ( O + F + T ) - O - F - T
= P
Its back to square singular Passion. Boo.


Now, if only outta O, F and T, one factor could be classified as a plus. The F especially, A prominent factor.


Thing is, chasing after your passion and making it a huge existence in your life IS NOT RESTRAINED by time.
You could take a month.
Or 1 year.
Or 5 years.


The determination to keep them sparks alive during transition period and to stay in focus; it matters. much.


When the F has turned to a PLUS, what now? Your determination has caused you that sufficient-funding (be it parental subsidation, self-saved $ or joint-venture offer) to make the dream TRUE.
Would one have the T(ime) ? Or does one need to drop current O[bligations] to obtain plenty of T to move ahead?


Multi connected, no?
Don’t say, ‘when there’s a will, there’s a way’.


There’s only 24hours a day, many don’t even get sufficient rest, just because multi arrows obligation-points are what they’re facing on daily basis.
You know your passion & you have the fund to make it happen?
What now?


Determined to breakthrough with a solid decision. Yes, please.
Even if it means you gotta bid farewell with current Obligation & Time.
To be engaged with a new type of Obligation & Time.


STOP.whining.uncertainly.and.blame.everything.else.


Shit happens.
So does miracle.
And scarce opportunities.
F.L.Y. and seize when you could.
Reaping sweet harvest, that’s definite.

:)

one click away

you clicked it ONCE.

until it gets to me..

So i smile and i wince
overwhelmed by the light

the light that reveals many lanes.
just when i sit by the darkness, thinking of a way out.

i thank thee. :*

(abusive)Demon slayer

Slaying them demons to pieces.
Not with piercing words.
Not with dirty, vulgar screams.

Slaying with soft, soft smiles.
Thousands of little curving lips.
Genuine delivery from the heart.

For at the end of each day…
The eager-wishful being is back on that hoping track.

To have one peaceful heart.
To be indifferent to vulganic abuse.
To strike with smiles.
To retain sanity with rational head.

To dismiss them mean, mean words as …
Mere noises.
Harmless vocal pollution.

thirteenth - One

13th of every month.
let's make a habit of compiling words i've written and shared on the timeline.
not to be repetitive.
only to retain their existencies. and as self reminders.

vylette's bits and pieces.
[give credits if you wanna copy]

Dependency. From the heart to the brain. Within one singular body. Wait, that's independency or in(ternal) dependency ? Choose. [vylette - Jan 18th ]

When it gets tricky. Push away them incoming yucky & stick to being quirky. Trivial peculiar humor to keep sanity & chain of staying lucky.

Rows of alphabetic cabaret. Not classified as some secret. Needs nothing but willingness to interpret.

Ah, the invisible global pressure. To obtain golden spot for the ‘treasure’. Can we stick to measure the leisure & end with simplified closure?

Active interactions with fellow mortals. And the space to choose. To provide answer, to stay or fly away OR… to offer different, different angles.

Bubbles of you. Floating all over; through them red blood vessels. From the top to the tip of the toes. Greeting with tingles. :))

vylette:

Right asks Left to go right.
Left says: “I don’t always do it right but even when its not right, it feels more than [all]right!, Right.”

“if you can’t do right you can always do what’s left..” (track: No one loves me & neither do I - band: Them Crooked Vultures) | via randysalim

some ppl are born to be lovable. some are born to be a test for other humankinds. the resistancy test of holding *that* urge to slap hard.

Camouflaged sadness, happiness & some other emotions. How can one trust the giver when one can't trust his/her own judgment towards realism.

Rekindling what once happened would burn us two. Stop the attempted gestures, let's stay single and unburdened. Fullstop.

you think you love him/her. others think you love that implanted images/perceptions he/she hints ambiguously. there, i said it. ah, illusion

Hidup itu kaya rokok. Pahit dgn filter yg manis. Stlh dicerna dgn kesadaran penuh, sebagian tertelan&sebagian kluar bagai asap yg menghilang

Reluctancy is a thing I'd rather not practice. Better be sorry for thing you've said with zero-to-many regrets than things you never say.

in between revising DRAFT and SENDing, there's different states of minds of the giver and receiver.

never ever buy friendship w/ $$ or sugar-coated ass-licking compliments. sincere and objective solidarity on the go pls, woman.

i don't do bullshit but when you're blabbering with full bullshit, i dont mind getting dirty & find a bull's shit to throw it. in.your.face.

what doesn't traumatize you, makes you stronger. what doesn't offer you reality wakeup call, leaves you delusional with fairytales scenarios

in between futile daily nagging & fighting suicidal mindfucks

Now, dear you.. stop bitching and start doing something or PLAN to do something. if you don’t think its possible, like the quote states: change your mindset.

real world’s bittersweet. one is going to experience plenty of bitterness on the early stage of life, before learning from the mistakes and to go through [future] balanced bitter & sweetness

Good career & academic achievement DON’T impress me if your attitude shows the otherwise. daily nagging & being fickle over trivial issues? WHOAT?

bitching& nagging is different. nag with bitchiness served on a witty full platter? i will bow down to you. if not, go nag in a private blog

if you’re going mellow, i say its natural. if you bitch from times to times, i say its humanly. if you nag and do nothing about it ALL THE TIME, its WHATEVA.

in between sadness/tendency to depression/daily mind fucks and outsiders’ perceptions, there’s freedom of thoughts.

one can be sad, suppressing major problems with camouflaged positivity or talk about it. some will empathize. some will point fingers. unfair as it may seems, i believe them incoming different responses/judgment, depends on the doer’s state of mind & how its being expressed.

just like suicidal thoughts. some thought they have it but able to fight it. some thought they have it but don’t really have it. some struggle hard to stay alive.

hmm.. struggling and still going on staying alive suiciders VS thinking-they-have-it at one point but not really suiciders. who’s judging who until it comes & slaps one hard, now? :)

not many grasp the idea of fighting inevitable killing thoughts. how suffocated one is, surrounded by moving & closing walls from all directions. your body’s trembling and shaking even after gulping daily dosage of anti anxiety-attack pills.

decision to commit/attempt to commit suicide. its not a joke. its not merely ‘oh, am sick of this world’. there’s subconcious mental mindfuck.

IF you must judge, judge inside your head. don’t condemn. period. :)

when you thought its enough but apparently you keep on going after sometime longing for more, thinking its not yet enough, that's when expectations could be misleading and deceiving and you might get sucked into the hole you don't want to be in at the first place.

I am in one for now.
In pain, yes.
Longing for more, yes.
Uncertain of current condition; let alone the progress, YES.

we are only humans.
We have ambitions sometimes.
even for things we can't have.

For things we think we can't have but might have chances in having.

Humans. That's all we are and that's what we do.

the country

in between physical chest pain to witness and read and watch the medias, i find reasons to live for the better.

Merapi... Mentawai... Wasior...
may your problems resolve soon.

Generous volunteers in all sorts of forms and ways, I salute you!

President flying to DIY for Merapi, i'm praying for the best of your response(s).

DPR members not giving a damn and going on 'study banding', 'naik haji dgn keluarga masing2', may you come to your senses.

FPI, may you rot in hell for giving Islamic a bad name.

People pointing and shouting and going judgmental in a sour bitter way against the others, shush and do something. Shut up. Pray. Donate if you could.

Be well, Indonesia :')